jasonryantruthalways
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@mrbrain I had to let my Husky Princess go and, tbh, I was selfish. It took her convulsing on the floor before I made the hardest decision...to say goodbye. My vet was great. She told me exactly what I needed to hear, that I was doing the right thing. I decided on cremation as I want to take all my babies with me when I leave this mortal coil.
I held my baby girl in my arms for a good 20 minutes after she took her last breath. I begged her not to go to far and to wait for me. I told her to stay close to Granny and Grandpa and that I would see her again. I just kept pleading with her to not stray, but always be what she was and is:my guardian angel.
I noticed my vet crying and I mentioned that this part of her job must be very difficult. She admitted that she had only cried twice putting an animal to sleep, and this was one of the two. When I walked out of the vet I was laughing and crying and angry. All of the emotions that had been on the sidelines while fear and sadness took over flooded out. Somehow, the heaviness of my heart gave the air a lightness and my breathing slowed down. I wasn’t gulping breaths between hyperventilated chest spasms from the breaking of my heart.
Take your time. Take care of yourself. Sometimes the best thing to do is to throw your hands up and say, “you know what? That was totally shitty, unfair, and that fucking sucked”. On the other hand, Moose got what many dogs never experience: love. And not just any love. Love from your heart and deep in your soul. I will be saying my prayers for Moose and all young dogs out there.
Just know you did the right thing. You made the most difficult decision and because of that you are brave. If it’s too hard to talk,(I know it was for me), I suggest sending out a group text that says “thank you for everyone’s love and support. . I really need this time to process. While I appreciate all of your care, I will reach out when I’m ready to talk”.
That’s just the route I went with. We all have different ways of processing grief.
I’m sending love and hugs...do you feel them? Sleep well tonight knowing that although you lost your baby in this world, now he can do his job and be your guardian angel forever. Best of luck with your grief. I hope you feel better.
I held my baby girl in my arms for a good 20 minutes after she took her last breath. I begged her not to go to far and to wait for me. I told her to stay close to Granny and Grandpa and that I would see her again. I just kept pleading with her to not stray, but always be what she was and is:my guardian angel.
I noticed my vet crying and I mentioned that this part of her job must be very difficult. She admitted that she had only cried twice putting an animal to sleep, and this was one of the two. When I walked out of the vet I was laughing and crying and angry. All of the emotions that had been on the sidelines while fear and sadness took over flooded out. Somehow, the heaviness of my heart gave the air a lightness and my breathing slowed down. I wasn’t gulping breaths between hyperventilated chest spasms from the breaking of my heart.
Take your time. Take care of yourself. Sometimes the best thing to do is to throw your hands up and say, “you know what? That was totally shitty, unfair, and that fucking sucked”. On the other hand, Moose got what many dogs never experience: love. And not just any love. Love from your heart and deep in your soul. I will be saying my prayers for Moose and all young dogs out there.
Just know you did the right thing. You made the most difficult decision and because of that you are brave. If it’s too hard to talk,(I know it was for me), I suggest sending out a group text that says “thank you for everyone’s love and support. . I really need this time to process. While I appreciate all of your care, I will reach out when I’m ready to talk”.
That’s just the route I went with. We all have different ways of processing grief.
I’m sending love and hugs...do you feel them? Sleep well tonight knowing that although you lost your baby in this world, now he can do his job and be your guardian angel forever. Best of luck with your grief. I hope you feel better.
Our golden was only 9 when she passed due to having cancer so I know the struggle you are going through. The memories will help you with this sad time