@everlastingfootprint I am 69 years old and I have known your pain many times. It hurts bad... every single time. No matter how many fur friends I have said 'good bye' to.... I would never not have them in my life!
I have had Springer Spaniels, Afghans Hounds and mixed 'mutts'...but Golden Retrievers are THE BEST!! They are the only dogs in my life now because they are so funny...and loyal...and loving. They give the BEST kisses, don't they? And no dog can chase tennis balls like they can!
I am coming up on the 1 yr bridge date of my 14 yr old Golden Retriever, Cooper. I think about him every day, But now I smile more than tear up. And you will too. Give it time...don't rush your grief.
I am SO sorry for the loss of your best friend, your fur child. Please know you are in my thoughts and close to my heart during this time of profound sadness. When you feel up to it please visit The Rainbow Bridge of you
can. You will find some comfort there.
Stay safe.
Godspeed precious Appache... what a GOOD boy you are!
(((hugs)))