I grew up a kid with horrible allergies. Could never have a pet. Fast forward to I'm an adult and prior to my annual doctor appointment, my 10 yo daughter hands me a list of questions to ask him. On there is "Can we get a dog?". I'm thinking no way is he going to say yes. So I go and get tested for allergies and the doc says "Good news, you are not allergic to dogs anymore". Hmmm. That's interesting. So the wife and daughter start looking into dogs and to play it safe we end up getting a Labradoodle. She's been great. A few years later, they want another one. So we get one from the same breeder. Her name was Hope.
Hope turns out to be a very anxious dog. Always giving and wanting affection. She loved us more than anything. She was the playful, goofy dog. Did this mouth licking thing when she got nervous that was like slapstick comedy. I am an early riser and she always got up with me. Always there in the morning, wagging her tail, wanting and receiving pets. Sometimes I would try to sneak by so I would not wake her and have to give all of that attention. It's funny how now all you want is that "annoyance" back.
A few months ago, Hope, now 9 1/2 years old, was diagnosed with cancer of the lymph node. We had it removed, and she was on chemotherapy for a bit and did not tolerate it well. Last week she went downhill some more, and stopped eating. We spent most of the weekend at the vet ER and made the tough decision to put her at peace yesterday.
Now with her gone I am being hit very hard by how much I miss her. This morning I woke up and turned on the light where she would be sleeping and was sad she was not there to greet me. This little dog, so playful, so fun, so goofy, brought me so much joy. A pet I never thought I could have brought so much joy to my life.
I have gone through many stages of grief, sadness and relief. When she was first diagnosed, I thought "she will beat this, no way is cancer taking our Hopey." On Friday when she needed to go to the ER I still thought she would be fine and come out Ok. Then Saturday came and we found out she probably only had a few more days to live. We brought her home to give her some time with us and her older sister. But she had just gone downhill too much.
Early yesterday we made the toughest decision and put her at peace. I was relieved that the decision was made but was overcome with grief when the time came. When we got home the void became real. I'm trying to focus on how much joy she brought us but it's tough in this time.
I am posting this because I Hope (haha) it will help me with the grieving process. Thanks in advance for your emotional support.
Rest in peace Hopey. You brought us so much joy and we love and miss you so much.
Hope turns out to be a very anxious dog. Always giving and wanting affection. She loved us more than anything. She was the playful, goofy dog. Did this mouth licking thing when she got nervous that was like slapstick comedy. I am an early riser and she always got up with me. Always there in the morning, wagging her tail, wanting and receiving pets. Sometimes I would try to sneak by so I would not wake her and have to give all of that attention. It's funny how now all you want is that "annoyance" back.
A few months ago, Hope, now 9 1/2 years old, was diagnosed with cancer of the lymph node. We had it removed, and she was on chemotherapy for a bit and did not tolerate it well. Last week she went downhill some more, and stopped eating. We spent most of the weekend at the vet ER and made the tough decision to put her at peace yesterday.
Now with her gone I am being hit very hard by how much I miss her. This morning I woke up and turned on the light where she would be sleeping and was sad she was not there to greet me. This little dog, so playful, so fun, so goofy, brought me so much joy. A pet I never thought I could have brought so much joy to my life.
I have gone through many stages of grief, sadness and relief. When she was first diagnosed, I thought "she will beat this, no way is cancer taking our Hopey." On Friday when she needed to go to the ER I still thought she would be fine and come out Ok. Then Saturday came and we found out she probably only had a few more days to live. We brought her home to give her some time with us and her older sister. But she had just gone downhill too much.
Early yesterday we made the toughest decision and put her at peace. I was relieved that the decision was made but was overcome with grief when the time came. When we got home the void became real. I'm trying to focus on how much joy she brought us but it's tough in this time.
I am posting this because I Hope (haha) it will help me with the grieving process. Thanks in advance for your emotional support.
Rest in peace Hopey. You brought us so much joy and we love and miss you so much.
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