@ozzijez Your feelings are valid. You are also not alone! I recently also lost my 2 yr old dog last month. Reading your story also helped me. I’m so so sad to lose a dog who was so young.
It’s been a month and I’m still recovering from the shock and grief. Pls take your time. It’s been hard to unpack losing a young dog. You didn’t get to see them become old and grey. You didn’t get to take them everywhere you dreamt of. But they are old enough and such a formed soul at 2. They are so playful and directly an imprint of the upbringing you lovingly gave them.
There are anomalies in dog health and genetics. I’ve had to accept Not all dogs are destined to live long lives. Time is not as important as quality of life. You gave your dog absolutely
Everything and they only take that love with them. There are no regrets on the other side. From one pet owner to another, those regrets will rob you of your sanity.
(My dog was also beautiful and healthy. Had a seizure in Feb and passed away by June. We hospitalized him and despite the vet bill we never got a diagnosis. His health declined quickly)
If you choose to go outside you may just get a sign or message from your baby. Their spirit is around a lot the first week. You may even get a visitation in your dream. They are very real and so natural!