Today while out training my 1.6yo gsd x lab we were caught off guard by a man and a small dog. Before I could react fast enough he’d yanked me over onto the wet and muddy grass. I just sat there for a minute in disbelief before tearing up. I spilled all the treats, so we couldn’t continue, and even if I hadn’t I was so upset that I just brought him straight home.
As the day has gone on my body is aching more and I’ve just generally been feeling the blues and like I’m not good enough, not doing enough, not this not that etc. I calmed down. But I’m not gonna lie, I didn’t want anything to do with him for a few hours when we got back. It really felt like we’d made a lot of progress and it was just all out the window.
We have a cuddle and I feel myself settling down. I go to the bathroom. He’s still obviously having some big feelings because I come back into the room and he has ripped my squishmallow. He knows it’s mine. My only one.
I put him out of the room and now I’m writing this.
It’s so hard.
When you realise you got the dog you needed, and not the dog you wanted.
My back hurts. I fell forward and even my breast is a little sore. I feel embarrassed that I fell over. I feel shitty that he’s been having big feelings too and feels bad as well.
Ugh. I don’t even know where I’m going with this. Today sucked. We try again tomorrow.
As the day has gone on my body is aching more and I’ve just generally been feeling the blues and like I’m not good enough, not doing enough, not this not that etc. I calmed down. But I’m not gonna lie, I didn’t want anything to do with him for a few hours when we got back. It really felt like we’d made a lot of progress and it was just all out the window.
We have a cuddle and I feel myself settling down. I go to the bathroom. He’s still obviously having some big feelings because I come back into the room and he has ripped my squishmallow. He knows it’s mine. My only one.
I put him out of the room and now I’m writing this.
It’s so hard.
When you realise you got the dog you needed, and not the dog you wanted.
My back hurts. I fell forward and even my breast is a little sore. I feel embarrassed that I fell over. I feel shitty that he’s been having big feelings too and feels bad as well.
Ugh. I don’t even know where I’m going with this. Today sucked. We try again tomorrow.
it's okay to feel like crap! I have cried so many times and been pulled over and hurt in front of lots of people.
I know I’ll look back on these days with fondness and miss his craziness one day. But pulling me down and then eating all the treats I’d spilled while I sat on the wet grass sniffling was rubbing salt in the wound 
and you will definitely look back at all the puppy times and laugh with disbelief that you BOTH made it this far together but faaarr out do they test ya! I love quilt covers so had lots....when I adopted my girl she slowly chewed all the buttons off most of them 
took ages to show her it made mummy sad....
